| June 20, 2007 |
back to my tabbie
hola! im blogging again here. i uber need a place to rant. i think no one will check this anymore, so im safe. lol. tagal ko na hindi nagblog dito. and for the record, nag layas ako. lol. ganyan ako kalupit. yeah, im the great cassanova. but im no longer loving it uber dami na ng nangyari sakin. and oh, jette and i broke up. that happened a long time ago. he broke up with me two days before he left for singapore. he broke up with me after feeling my coldness to him. i feel that i repeat myself again and again. before, with karlo, i get cold to him coz i felt that i was falling for jette. it turned out to be my worse decision. the reason for the so-called coldness to jette? i was falling for a guy who has a girlfriend, who has a kid, someone i just met and i know zero about. i thought everything would go fine like every other thing goes. for some while me and another guy (let's call him <3) put it like a real gf-bf treatment. we hugged, we kissed, and everything in between. lol. it was very happy moment. but pandemonium happened after his birthday bash. the happiest day i spent with him was that tuesday. we are together all day. we ate, went to quiapo for dvd galore, etc. we were even exchanging messages about me being a writer till i fell asleep and called it a day. Next day, was our off from office. I didn't hear anything from him. It was kinda disturbing, coz it was the first time I didn't hear anything from him. come thursday, still no text or call. i worried. "what the hell is going on?" i called him and tried to reach him, no response. then my whole ego was crushed after knowing that his gf found out about us. the killing part? he denied it. as you can see (as if anyone will still visit lol) i went through a lot. a lot of times i feel i know i made a wrong decision when i let him get away. he was the one who loved me best, and still the best and longest relationship i ever had. i jumped from one boy after another like some kind of whore thinking they could love me. |
